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Hey there my name is Peri McKinnis, I’m a 24 year old college graduate with a mind that was built for the creative arts. Growing up I was the kid who preferred to read over doing anything with numbers and liked to play all the pretending games you could think of. But after a while I got too stuck in my head. My own thoughts would turn against me and soon I let go of that fun inner child that I had and stuffed her away. The less people paid attention to me the better I felt. Or at least that was what I was telling myself. Deep down I was resentful of the life I was living because I knew I could do better. I knew I was destined for bigger things.

For a while I wondered what my purpose was. What was I supposed to do? Honestly if my child self had it her way all we’d do is simply lay around, read some books, eat some good food, and vibe. And for a while I thought that was impossible. But as I grew older, social media slowly started to advanced to what we know today. And the best part? Is that social media makes it possible to do all the fun things I enjoyed as a child but get paid for doing it. Of course I don’t want to make it sound like it’s easy. With all the research I’ve done it’s honestly no easy feat. Does it look fun though? Absolutely. And I’ve always wanted to be a part of the content creator world. However I felt like there was nothing I could offer to the internet. Until I woke up one day and said, “f*ck it.”

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What was my breaking point? Well I’m sure much like all of you, it was quarantine. While the pandemic is something that will stick with us forever this time of solitude and away from people I had no excuse. I didn’t have a way to run away from my problems like I usually did. Especially when I decided to quarantine with my mother, someone who has not only pushed me to be a better person but wants me to see my potential.

Being stuck in my home, away from friends, scared of leaving the house for fear of getting sick gave me plenty of time and growth to figure out what I really want to do with my life. I don’t want to work in an office, I didn’t like working any basic jobs, all around the only thing that sounded fun to me was creating content and working for myself. Which when you say it out loud sounds like an ideal time but also sounds impossible. But honestly when I was looking around for other blogs and inspiration I noticed that everyone started the same way. They just winged it. And as the years went on they just got better and better. So what makes me any different? Yeah it’s easy to compare someone’s current success to your starting point but it’s silly! Everyone starts not knowing what they’re doing.

It’s really scary to have a bunch of people to look at your content for the first time, especially when it feels like you don’t know what you’re doing. But I’m kind of excited. I’ve always been jealous of people who can just wholly be themselves without giving it a second thought. So here I am, putting myself out there without giving it a second thought. Well, you know, I’m obviously going to put a lot of love in to my content but I’m done beating myself over every little thing. Instead I’m celebrating myself. I’m celebrating all the future content I’m gonna make, the times that I tried, and all the fun things I’m planning on doing.

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I am really good at ignoring myself. My needs, my dreams, my personality, anything that had to do with who I am as a person I ignored. Ignoring myself was my form of escaping the bad parts of me. Or at least what I perceived as bad. But some of these things were just me being a normal functioning human being. And I was taking that for granted. I was taking all my talents that I deemed unworthy for granted.

But not anymore! I have decided to throw all those negative thoughts out the window and prove to not only myself but to other people that I have a right to enjoy life. That I have a right to be whoever I want to be even if there are some people who don’t like or understand it. For too long I was living a life that wasn’t truly serving me.

My confidence has always been something that I have struggled with, but the only way to break a habit is to literally break that habit. And this is me breaking those chains. Cliche I know but honestly that’s how it feels. It’s most definitely easier said than done. Every day is a baby step towards the life that I want to live. Everything is falling into place and I figured I would document my journey. We’re here to have fun. We’re here to have a good time. And time isn’t real so let’s party and enjoy the world while we’re still here!

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Peri McKinnis of Peri Reads

I’m a creative, I’m a dreamer, and I’m an Aries. I’ll read any book with enough convincing, I enjoy weird movies, and I’m a caffeine fiend. From the day that I brought my first book catalog home from school I knew that books were going to have a special place in my heart. Now I want to spread that love here, to talk about the books that made us cry, fall in love, and scorn because we couldn’t finish them. 

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